I am so sick of the snow. so sick. i also am sick of the fact that the sun never comes out in holland. the good news is however that i went home last weekend and had a very relaxing time...with plenty of winter sun.
lately i have been absent because i started a new medicine that makes me super tired. the good news is that its starting to not have any side effects so im no longer as tired...plus im getting plenty of sleep.
also, i got good advice today about making decisions. if you know me you know i struggle with making impulsive decisions. the advice i got is basically to wait on most decisions, to keep track of feelings in a journal, and then after a given amount of time, like a couple weeks or a month, go through the journal and see how the feelings have changed.
for example, if i'm at the store and i see a pair of shoes that i think i have to have right now, then i can go home and think about it for a couple of days, if i still feel like it is a good idea, and i can afford them, then i should buy them.
this may seem like common sense to most of you, but it isn't to me. this is something i struggle with, and its great because i can use it for any decision...like...should i date him? should i get that tattoo? should i buy the ugg boots?
i've also started to become more self aware and to understand why i make impulsive decisions. right before i make a decision my anxiety gets really high and i feel like...now now now i have to do this now i have to have this now....if i give in to the decision (i.e. buy the boots) then the anxiety goes away and i feel better. this is true for most people. the only thing is, is that i struggle with my pause button and taking the time to think about a decision.
anyway. i'm willing to give it a try.
